Foggy Abyss

I was watching Gilmore Girls sometime last week and happened to be watching the one where Rory has a breakdown because she's graduating from college. This is what she said and it hit very close to home:

"It just feels like I'm standing on a cliff looking out into this huge, foggy abyss. Like a HUGE, foggy abyss. And my whole life, there's never been an abyss. It's been abyssless. And I've always known exactly what is in front of me. I've known exactly where I'm going and now I don't know what's out there. Except fog. A lot of fog. And I hate not knowing what is out there."

I couldn't have said it any better myself.

One week from today, I'll have taken my Fitness Assessment Practical. Two weeks from today, I'll have taken my last final. 17 Days from today, I'll be graduating from college. I'm freaking out. But I have to keep it together. I have to keep it together for grades, for myself and my sanity, and for my friends that are experiences some tough times in their lives who need me. I'm trying really hard to keep it together. What I really need right now is a nice long drive, some good tunes, oreos, and someone to talk to as we drive away from reality for just a little while. Otherwise, I might have a breakdown of my own. But you know, sometimes it just feels good to cry it out. Stupid foggy abyss...

I might be crazy

Last night I signed up for this:

Which means I should probably get a new pair of these:

My roommate has been trying to convince me to sign up for it for months and I think finally gave up. Then yesterday I ran 4 miles in the gym with relative ease (compared to the beginning of this semester) and after seeing a training schedule for a Half, realized that I am basically already workout out to the training schedule, minus the long runs each week. After convincing myself that the $40 entry fee was going to be worth it, I registered!

I'm excited and nervous! Not looking forward to the days that I know it will be difficult to work out and I'm sure I'll face an injury or two. After cross-country in high school, I'm aware that my joints aren't the strongest. But I'm really looking forward to this. I have been wanting to have the guts to do one of these for a couple years and I think this is what I really need right now. A new goal, a new dream, a new something to be working toward.

So August 27, I will be running 13 miles. Go Alyssa Go! (What I will have to repeat in my head for many, many miles)

Oh this weather!

So everyone has been freaking out about the bipolar weather, which has honestly been pretty annoying to me. How long have you been here?! This is what Utah (especially Northern Utah) Spring is like. One day it's beautiful and sunny and people get their little hopes up and the next day it's a blizzard and everyone whines and complains. Just suck it up. It will be over in the next month-ish. Now, I don't particularly like this weather, I've just accepted that this is what we have to go through. Whining about this is just like whining about 100 degrees in July or snow at Christmas...that's just how this season goes!

Well, you would think that since I've been so loyally defending this season (regardless of it actually being my least favorite of the four...go Autumn!) that it would cut me some slack. False. Spring decided to be a total bitty today.

I checked the weather this morning and it said about 50 and rainy. I can handle that. So I put on my comfy shoes and rain jacket and headed to campus. By noon I was walking through two inches of slush because the sky couldn't decide if it wanted to rain or snow and every time I walked outside, my shoes and socks were soaked within seconds.

Thursday is my long day on campus, but due to an event that some of my friends were in, I stayed even longer. By the time I left campus, it was about 8:15 pm and both of my roommates that are still in town (Kaili is in Vegas) were at work, so I started the trek home, knowing it would be a cold one for my poor feet. By the time I reached the Institute (a 10 second walk from the student center) my feet were already soaked. No biggie, I thought. I'll just hurry home! I got to the intersection to cross the street and as I was standing there, waiting for the light to change, a jeep screamed by splashing me with slush. Great! I continued my walk home and decided to stay with the longer hill because it had a side walk and I didn't want to get splashed again. Bad idea. First off, I got stuck behind a girl taking up the whole side walk and walking incredibly slow! I mean, yeah she had on cute galoshes that matched her cute umbrella, but some of us wanted to get home before their toes fell off. I finally passed her and as karma would have it, I fell. Yes, I fell!!!! I have prided myself on not having fallen ever since I've been to college, so I knew it had to happen. My bum was wet and my pride hurt but I laughed it off and continued my walk home. At this point I was really cold and had about another 4 minutes to go, which isn't bad unless you have wet, frozen feet, a wet bum and hurt pride. With about 1.5 minutes to go, I fell again! This time right on my right knee. It hurt like none other. For some reason this made me angry so I got up and with all the energy I had hobbled home (yeah I might have limped like a gimp for a little bit) until I finally got home when I quickly discarded my soaking clothing items and exchanged them for warm sweats.

Here are my battle scars...I know it doesn't look bad, but it looked worse at first and if you can see those little bruises, you would know I must have hit the cement really hard because I don't easily bruise, a trait I wish I could trade for amazingly colored bruises.

Moral of the story? Don't try and befriend Mother Nature in the Spring. She's a bitty that will ruin your perfect no fall record with exactly one month til graduation and practically ruin your favorite shoes.

Love...

I have a new love in my life...

We call it Green Machine Naked Juice....soooo yummy!

I used my boss's Sam's Club card on Saturday and went and bought these bad boys for about $6 each. Lovely.

So far it's going well. Pretty sure it's the healthiest thing I've consumed in a long time...except for that salad and the strawberries I had the other day..."dirt" as my friend called them. What does he know....